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Assalamualaikum dan hai semua..

Sekian lama tidak menulis, dan sekali lagi rasa terpanggil untuk memperbaiki azam dan mengemaskini blog..Ya Allah, lihatlah betapa manusia suka berazam dan betapa sukar untuk memenuhinya..apapun, saya percaya, jangan pernah berhenti berazam dan berharap, kerana hidup ini adalah didasarkan pada harapan...When there's hope, there's life!

wah, oleh yang demikian saya harap saya dapat mengekalkan mod menulis sebegini..but being too serious just doesnt sound me...hik3..I somehow prefer to sound more relax and jovial..well, whatever it is, I'm just being me;)

Oleh kerana ini adalah update setelah sekian lama tidak menulis, maka saya harus buat satu ringkasan tentang perjalanan hidup saya yang memerlukan sedikit pengkisahan, mungkin? supaya mudah utk difahami dan dibuat gambaran umum terhadap keadaan seorang 'Seri' yang masih 'pinkaholic' itu..

Pengkisahan 1 : NO LONGER A TEACHER
Saya meletakkan jawatan sebagai guru atau nama glamournya "Pegawai Perkhidmatan Pendidikan Siswazah' bermula 5 Ogos 2011 atas sebab-sebab yang telah saya pertimbangkan sedalam-dalamnya.Walaubagaimanapun, saya amat menghargai dan sentiasa merindui pengalaman hampir 10 tahun mengajar dan saya yakin itulah yang telah sebati dalam hidup saya. Walaupun saya tidak lagi bergelar guru, namun saya tetap dan akan terus berbangga dipanggil 'Cikgu Seri', 'Teacher Seri','Madam Seri' dan masih ada jua yang kekal memanggil saya 'Cik Seri'.Saya percaya, once a teacher, forever a teacher. Aspirasi guru itu tetap mekar dan segar dalam jiwa saya, dan saya percaya sentiasa ada ruang untuk berbakti, ia boleh dilakukan dalam pelbagai cara.

Pengkisahan 2 : I'M A MOM NOW
Alhamdulillah, I'm blessed with the presence of Nufael Akeef..he's now 5 mths..(and a reason why I stop blogging)*cehh....suka letakkan pelbagai alasan kan??heeee~
Kehadiran Akeef amat-amat merobah kehidupan ini..perasaan bergelar ibu amat sukar saya gambarkan dan luahkan..apapun, tanggungjawab yang datang bersamanya itu lebih membimbangkan, mampukah diri ini menunaikan hak-hak Akeef sebagai seorang anak..semoga saya diberi kekuatan dan sayab percaya kehadiran Akeef banyak mengajar saya erti tanngungjawab dan amanah.Mommy loves u Akeef!!

Pengkisahan 3 : I'M A BETTER SPA OWNER
Alhamdulillah, saya kini berpeluang mengurus spa dengan lebih baik apabila sudah tidak terikat lagi dengan tugas-tugas hakiki seorang guru. Di spa saya juga mampu menjadi guru,memberi panduan pada pelanggan-pelanggan di spa saya, membina ukhuwwah dan jaringan yang meluas, memberi ruang pekerjaan dan pendedahan pada remaja2 perempuan yg berminat dalam bidang kecantikan dan keusahawanan, dan saya harus katakan di sini tugas mengemudi sebuah perniagaan adalah cabaran hebat untuk saya galas, insya Allah saya mengahrapkan Seri's Spa akan terus berkembang dan bersaing hebat dalam industri kecantikan.

Pengkisahan 4 : IT'S GET BACK TO CAMPUS TIME!
Alhamdulillah, dengan kesempatan dan keizinan yang dipinjamkan olehNya, saya kini bergelar pelajar kembali di universiti kecintaan saya, Gedung Ilmu yang saya rindui..Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, yang Mengilhamkan Harapan dan Membina Masa Depan..bergelar pelajar sarjana dalam pengkhususan Sosiologi Pendidikan. Saya mengambil peluang ini untuk menerokai perjalanan baru yang saya pasti dipenuhi 1001 pengalaman. Apapun, inilah ruang untuk saya terus mencintai dan menimba ilmu..Ilmu yang bermanfaat dan berharga untuk kita praktikkan serta sebarluaskan selepas ini. Siapa tahu, saya mungkin mampu menjadi motivator suatu masa nanti..jika tidak utk kelompok besar, sekurang2nya untuk Akeef, rakan2nya dan mereka yg berada di sekeliling saya. Saya amat teruja kembali bergelar pelajar:)

Sekian saja coretan kali ini, saya akan terus mewarnai blog ini dgn cerita2...*harapan lagi*

Again, when there's hope, there's LIFE!

So long..

Salam

I told myself, u must update this blog before the year ends..haha..n one of my students said, "apsal teacher tak habis2 baling tepung?"..hoho, it reminded me of my (again) abandoned blog...haish, I shudnt have started one;)

For the past few months, my hubby n I were in "HURU HARA PERIOUD"..he was SOOOO occupied with his conversion classes, line training and check..(well, I dont really know the exact terms used for those pilots training)..alhamdulillah he managed to finish all and I'm now waiting for him to be officially called "captain"..whatever it is, we always have this thought "What is there with titles??" erm..

So, the day he finished his HURU HARA perioud, I said.."Well, it's time for a vacation!!Phuket may be"..harhar..just a small try, naughty me=)
He ran up the stairs, n I bet he watched tv or playing games, while I would spend hours in facebook n my fashion magazines,harharhar..then, he asked.."so u feel like going??"..n me gave all my reasons and causes..he finally said "alrite, let's do the booking.."Yeay!!I was so happy, people say NO HARM TRYING!Gagagagaga=)

Oh dear,I'll be going to Phuket in few hours time n I havent packed any single stuff yet!!I was not really sure if this is a penyakit or what..but, I'll face the same problem everytime I'm leaving for somewhere..no matter it's a vacation, a course, a competition, going back to kampung. going back to hostel or college (back to d old days)..I just couldnt pack my stuffs early..I won't be sleeping and will be delaying my packing,grrr...wonder, but that is what gonna happen every time=(

Well. I hope I'l manage to pack nice clothes n scarves to wear!Yeah, I'll be in Phuket in few hours=)

A shoulder to cry on

Hello..

I'm now writing from my school's desktop, haha..running from my unreliabale ACER zaman tok kadok because hubby brought his HP to work..I supposed to do some marking, but I chose to update my blog. (Betapa tak fokusnya cikgu ini..)

Hey, what made me here?I mean school??mm, to be honest it is just because I need some space to write, I mean to let my feeling off!!that's the truth. About marking, PEKA, Fail Kebersihan, question papers etc. I can simply bring it home and do it..BUT I'm still here in front of my pc just to share a story..a story about my spa..

I seldom write or tell about my spa because I dont really like people to know any problems occur in my business.And being a businesswoman (so called), I believe that I need to be strong to face any obstacles and unexpected problems that sometimes really ruin my mood n energy!!Exhausting!!

What happened today? I went to spa and do some clerical thingy, (biase la ntah ape2 je la yg I akan buat kan)..and when I was about to leave my spa, I saw Akma (my staff) watery eyes..I stood in front of her and asked why..she refused to talk, n I knew she tried to hold her tears..Well, I let her cry for few seconds before asking her again..waited patiently n she finally told me abot her worries..(which actually is something that I'm worrying about too!!)She's worrying about the fact that we havent got any new beautician to replace those who had left us for studies n etc (I do not want to elaborate)..It's ok readers, I'll take care of it.This is not my very first time facing and handling those troubles..I called my mom 2 days before to tell her, "Mak, kita dah tak larat dah mak..dah jadi lali dah..mcm2 dah berlaku pun..", n my mom as always will text me later, "be tough, good girl"..Well, she still call me a girl (I love you Mak)..

My point is, Akma can cry and I can be her shoulder to cry on..she still have the tears to cry..n she still have me to listen..what about me??I takut nak fikir sebab kenapa I dah tak boleh nak nangis, sometimes I think I'm just too egoist to cry..or is it becaused I had lost my feelings??My neighbour had once said,"Jangan biarkan diri Seri jd sampai xde perasaan..hati kering jer."

Oh no..I was driving to school just now carrying all those emotional baggage (nie pun satu masalah gak, bawak kereta dgn minda ntah kat mana2)..Ye ke aku nie dah tak de perasaan??or I just have to be strong to face everything??I need a shoulder to cry on...

Ya Allah, begitu sarat mindaku, bantulah dan ringankanlah..

Respect

Salam

I know almost every soul in this world want to live rich, to splurge in a luxury lifestyle..most of us, wanna carry a designer handbags, to fit in designer shoes..or at least to have a lot of money to go for an oversea vacation, to build an enormous bungalow n to drive a convertible?Merc?BMW?Porshe?Audi?Jaguar?owh..which ever luxurious car!

Some of us are just so lucky were born fed with the gold spoon, many of us really work hard to turn their dreams into reality..most of us are the spectators to all the luxurious other people possesed..some of us are happy with whatever they have while some of us will never get enough!Some of us trying hard every single day to be at par with others..

As for me, whatever lifestyle a people choose to live is their own choice. n every soul deserve to be respected. I'm so pissed off with this conversation I heard few days back:

A : Hey, I'm somewhere near to your office!
B : So, wud u want me to join u?
A : Definitely, n dat's y I called
B : Mm, I'm afraid I cudnt make it..it's still working hours
A : Ha..tu la, dulu org suruh masuk **** tak nak, ada masa sendiri, x payah susah2 keje mcm korang nie..(saja tulih dlm bm, supaya lebih menyakitkan hati..)

Excuse me!!people got their own way to live their life!Some people are very happy n content with watever they have n never feel desperate to live better!!Some people are very happy with their small pay because they just enjoy doing things they love..And some people just work because they choose to, not because they have to..So, cud u please RESPECT what other people choose to do in their lives??!!Not everyone born to be a MLM person, n not every one can succeed in that line..Having ALL people doing MLM, than who left to become teachers??to TEACH YOUR OWN CHILDREN???Who would run the laundry n grocery shop??for you to send YOUR DIRTY CLOTHES just bcoz you DO NOT Have the time to take care of it when YOU CLAIMED You do have ALL TIME in this world becoz YOU RE YOUR OWN BOSS??N who wud fly the plane for you to go for your so called sponsored OVERSEA SEMINAR??Hey, who do yo think you are to determine other people's live???

I'm not so against MLM thingy,I HATE YOUR WAY OF THINKING!!

PLEASE LEARN TO RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE'S CHOICE!!

Jiwa kacau

Pernahkah kau terfikir seketika berada di tempatku
Membayangkan pahit manis berlalu
Tak siapa yang tahu
Mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan
Berdepan dengan kata menyesakkan
Takkan tugumu kebal
Tiada pertimbangan

I'm not so sure that is the correct lyrics, but this is what I have now in my mind..I'm a bit distracted these few days, I got things bothering me..still I'm looking for the correct person to share..(I'm not going to share,I bet)

Keheningan malam membangunkan..kepayahan jiwa meluahkan..





Ya Allah, ku mohon kekuatan meneruskan, moga tiap malamku menjadi peneman terbaik, moga maghfirah dan mardhiyahMu menjadi penyuluh terbaik..ku mohon.

p/s: Lyrics from Biarlah Rahsia, Siti Nurhaliza

You re still the one

Salam

I'm here all alone in this double story courtyard house..this is where my wedding reception for the groom side was held..and this is the very 1st house my husband bought in early 2005. Our wedding in this house was on May 27th, 2005.

My husband was called up to China yesterday, no worries. He'll be at home tomorrow nite.Being left in this house is a normal scenario to me..and I'm okay with it. Some people always say that I'm brave enough to be left all alone and to face my days on my own whenever hubby not around. Alhamdulillah, I'm capable so far..to go through the days all by myself. I believe I'm alone, but I never feel lonely..I am showered with loves n thoughts..Loves n thoughts from my everdearest husband, my so loving family, warm friends and thoughtful students!!I'm so thankful that I have this wonderful life.Thanks to Allah.

I watched "Mabuk Estrogen" on Astro Ria n it really made me think. I'm thankful to have a good life and a very loyal, caring, supportive and patient husband. Those words can't describe how I feel so grateful to have him in my life. I always sing the Celine Dion song in my heart, "Because You Loved Me"..to me, that what I always feel and it portrays my feeling best!

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You aw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith cause you believe
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me..

To my husband, YOU'RE STILL THE ONE!

Love is all around

Ku Mohon

Tiap hari kumohon
agar Dikau sentiasa
memberiku ketenangan dalam hati
kekuatan
menempuhi segala hidup yang mencabar ini
Pasti punya ertinya

Kau beriku harapan
Menjawab segala persoalan
Hadapi semua dalam tenang
dengan merasa kesyukuran
ku doa Kau selalu
mengawasi gerak geriku
Berkatilah...ku penuh rahmat dariMu

Oh Tuhan
Terangkan hati dalam sanubariku
untuk menempuhi segala
hidup penuh cabaran ini
Oh Tuhan ku berserah segalanya kepadaMu
Agar jiwaku tenang dengan bimbingan Mu selalu

Adakala ku merasa
hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar
Jatuh berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku melalui semua itu
Kuatkanlah cekalkanlah hatiku..

I'll be listening to this song everytime I face problems..searching for a hero..I believe..there's a hero lies in you..

Lonely

What happened after the school's bell rang?

"Terima kasih cikgu" from 1 B2 in their own annoying melody..(I like it actually)
then, I walked down the stairs to staffroom.
Everbody was bz packing up things n buzz off in a blink of my eyes..

Yatie : Bye Seri, generasi Y balik dulu (generasi Y=manusia yg lahir 1981 dan seterusnya), thats what we call ourselves.

MEANING: NO GOSIPING

I met Maznita then : Cik Ser nak lepak lagi ker?generasi Y balik awl hari nie..
Seri: Jom lepak makan!
Maz: Haruskah makan?aku dah kenyang.
Seri: Xpe la, aku pon ada hal...(cube mencari hal ape nak dibuat)

MEANING: NO 'MENGETEH' SESION AFTER SKUL

I tried to sit at my cubicle n think of what to do..
Nak marking test paper? Semua dah marking...
Nak buat lesson plan?semua dah buat sampai hari merdeka
(surprisingly I finished everything before holidays, haha...unbelieveable??I'm an eleventh hour person!!!)

MEANING : NO STAY BACK AT SKUL

Jumped into my brand new Toyota Isis (told u I like Toyota), n dialed few nos:

1) Firdaus (my anak angkat) : Unreachable, he might havent come back from school, so he hadnt turned on his cellphone..

Meaning: No lunchdate n skor A session with him

2) My hubby : No answer, he might be sleeping, he's now in Sydney

Meaning: No sharing n manja2 session

3) Farah (my best buddy who's getting married soon) : Seri, I'll return ur call, I'm attending a patient now.."

Meaning: No cik bedah n cik kiah session

4)My mom : Dek Da, mak tengah mesyuarat Rumah Tunas Harapan..

Meaning : NO ONE TO TALK WITH!!!!!!

Thinking of a doing facial just to kill my time.."there's no available slot for u Seri, wud u like to make another appointment?"Argh, benci!!

Meaning : NO RELAXING ESCAPE!

Called my spa.."tgh tak ada customer la Puan..appointment pun takde"..

Meaning : NO BIZNES TALK

Called Nu'della HQ, "Seri, tungku hang order belom sampai.."

Meaning : NO NEED TO GO TO HQ

Argh...I hate this feeling, when I have nothing in my to do list..and no one to talk with!!!first n foremost I hate it when my hubby is not around!!
I drove my car to Mcdonalds Bangi n found that I missed the 12-3 lunchtime(it was just 3 minutes too late!)Argh..I have to spend more, hate it!

AND NOW I AM HERE UPDATING MY BLOG!!
THE LONELINESS IS KILLING ME!!!!

Me, a good salesperson?

Hi back..

My hubby had always suggested me to quit my job as a teacher and stay focus on the spa biznes. But, again and again he tried in vain..and me on the other hand, again and again polishing up the urge to quit my job, and it had never succeed, haha..after all,it's the matter of to be or not to be..

Well, today i go to school as usual, after signing in the attendance book (this is where SMK Cyberjaya not being cyber enuff!!!huhu)I rushed to Dataran Penyayang for the assembly.I'm the teacher on duty for this week and I had to deliver a speech. Well, of course I do love to stand in front of all students and say some motivational lines!I believe I'm very good at this!haha, perasan here..The assembly then ended and we were dismissed to carry out our own duty.
Let's check it out!!

8.10-9.30: Teaching 2 c2 (Bahasa Melayu)
9.30-10.10: Teaching 1 KAA (Geography)-gile terer aku bley ajar mcm2 subjek, hehe

10.10-10.30:
Collecting money from Lim (Caroline Trial Pack RM128)
Short consultation with Kak Tg Azraq, and she decided to buy a Caroline Trial Set(RM128), A Nutrimetics Loose Powder(RM54)

10.30-11.00: Brunch at school canteen

11.10:
Delivering Kak Zuraini Nutrimetics Long Lipstick (RM35.90)
11.30:
Kak Noris wanted to buy the Nutrimetics Apricot Cleanser (RM15.90)

11.50-12.30:Got to 4 Kemanusiaan 3 (relief class)

12.30:Kak Zalifah wanted to buy the Apricot cleanser (RM15.90)
N Arina asked for the spa brochure

1.00: Kak Zeti ordered Nutrimetics Face Prime Foundation Base(RM39.90) n Paper Whitening Mask(RM45)

2.30: School finished, stayed back for somework to do and rushed back to spa.Got appointment by 4pm.

4.00:Salesperson from Dunia Warisan hand in the stocks. n I managed to make them set an appointment for spa treatment tomorrow.

4.30: Consultation with Kak Azlina n managed to sell Caroline Skin Toner(RM78), Caroline UV Cream (RM68), Caroline Gold Serum (RM45) n a tangas session (RM45)
Another spa sale: 2 Caroline Trial Pack (RM128X2), A box of Caroline Gold Serum (RM200).

Well, when I calculated my total sale for today is RM1154.60, well kalau tiap2 hari dah jadi RM30K...mm, mcm boleh jadi sales person berjaya nie!!

Saje je cakap, dah lama dah tau..tapi buat2 x tau..huhu..after all, LIFE IS NOT ALL ABOUT MONEY!!!

My Very 1st Entry

Hi everyone..I will sometime spend hours reading other people's blog. And every time I browse through those pages, I would have an intention to start blogging. As a teacher, I always have things to write. Well, facing those teenagers at school is really fun! Having those gurlz and boyz who adore you is somewhat really interesting!!And being nominated as the Most Bergaya Teacher for five years in a row is HOTTT!!!Hehe..Well, that is not all about me!As this is my very 1st entry, I hope I wouldnt membebel so long..Anyway, don't get annoyed with all my perasan lines..I just want to create a good impression to the readers, haha...so teacher huh?This is what I would tell the students when I asked them to write any composition..Hey, sejak bila aku ajar BM?Ada la..yup, somewhen in 2006..huhu..English pun ade, last year.

But readers, please don't get me wrong ya..I am not a so conservative teacher who will nag you every single time we met.I am a very vogue, annoying and loveable teacher in every students heart?haha..again perasan..I am somehow a very motivated spa owner on the other hand. I do enjoy teaching, doing my spa business and one thing for sure, I really do love PINK kare!

What else should I tell?I am a very happy wife to my handsome husband, Mohd Hasnirizal Mohamad Bastamam and I am proud to tell that we have no kids yet! Do not ask me when am I going to have one..We had gone through 1 IUI and 2 IVF at HUKM, and I had once pregnant and then miscarriage. Ever since that, I leave everything to Allah, He Knows The Best!So, please do not tell me what to consume, which Dr to see, which mak bidan to go..I do not want to know for the time being..I had been showered with all ideas and suggestions for years, and I do appreciate that much.It is just now I would like to let things happen naturally as I always believe that Allah creates things for a reason. There's always hikmah that you will learn somehow..somewhen.

Hey, so long..

Since my house got burnt, I get the chance to see the sun rises from the other view.