Jiwa kacau

Pernahkah kau terfikir seketika berada di tempatku
Membayangkan pahit manis berlalu
Tak siapa yang tahu
Mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan
Berdepan dengan kata menyesakkan
Takkan tugumu kebal
Tiada pertimbangan

I'm not so sure that is the correct lyrics, but this is what I have now in my mind..I'm a bit distracted these few days, I got things bothering me..still I'm looking for the correct person to share..(I'm not going to share,I bet)

Keheningan malam membangunkan..kepayahan jiwa meluahkan..





Ya Allah, ku mohon kekuatan meneruskan, moga tiap malamku menjadi peneman terbaik, moga maghfirah dan mardhiyahMu menjadi penyuluh terbaik..ku mohon.

p/s: Lyrics from Biarlah Rahsia, Siti Nurhaliza

Cloth Ironing a.k.a Pressing

Salam to all

My hubby was called up to Perth this morning. He asked me to iron his cloth, I did it halfway before he came back 2 me and said, 'u gi mandi lah'..hehe, I suke jer..Fyi, I had been stopped (mark my word) from ironing his uniform since the last 3years??or maybe earlier than that..It was because he got a remark from his instructor during the test..This is how it sound:
"DRESS HAS TO BE NEATLY PRESSED"

From that moments onwards, I was asked not to iron his uniform!!!Yeah..what an escape!Some of my friend said I purposely did that, hehe.."gila keji perangai ko nie Seri..". some will say."hey, it's good..guys know the way to iron their cloth better"..some will say,'ape punyer bini la ko nie"..and what not..different people different opinion, Ada aku kesah???

My points today are:
tak semua orang sama, setiap orang ada penerimaan yang berbeza terhadap tiap suatu. Yang penting kita saling hormat menghormati pandangan..
Kalau semua orang sama, bosan lah pulak hidup nie kan..

Eei, sound grumpy???

Period Pain

I didnt go to school for two days for the old same reason!period pain!!Hey tell me how to get rid of this penyakit huh?
People say,"nanti kalau u kawen elok lah tu.."
I've been married for almost 5 years, but I still suffer from this painful dysmenorhea..betul ke eja?
Some people then told me,"kalau dah beranak nanti, elok lah tu.."
Oh please..I nak beranak, then I hope this thing will be flewn away with the kesakitan thruout pregnancy and delivery!

It really made me feel uncomfortable, I cant walk or stand, I had back pain, cramping here n there especially at the stomach and abdoment area..my body will be sweating, shimmering inside..I sometimes couldnt hold things..I feel so weak!

And, tell me what to take?ponstan?volteran?arcoxia?and now synflex?take honey to get me sweat, and of course bertungku..(alternatively hot herbal compress)..kalau kat asrama dulu pakai iron jeh ok!!

Mm, I went to see Dr just now and asked him to give me a jap..the pain was unbearable n I need to go to school tomorrow!!!

Ya Latif Ya Syafi..

My Best Friend's Wedding

Hey hey hey..
My best buddy's getting married SOON!!
Let me share who's she..

Full name: Norfarah Wirda bt Holid
Nick Name: Wirda (since Form 1), when she turned 20 she told me "from now onwards please call me Farah"..no more Kodol (hehe, our Asrama Puteri's special nickname)but I bet, that was the most remarkable aite??hehe
B.O.D : Sept 6th, 1980
Position : Audiologist (UKM Grad)
Knew her since : Jan 1992
We were dormmates for : 4 years
We went to same secondary school for 5 years, same Matriculation Centre for 1 year, then to the same university..but she happened to be at KL campus for those doing Medic, Dentistry or any allied science field..Me, of coz was so in heaven at Perbukitan Bangi...(Cinta UKM!!!!Yeah)

We shared a lot of stories, she's a shoulder to cry on..thru good or bad..she helped me to face thorns of life...lending me her ears day n nite..SHE'S ALL EARS!!!

I still remember she asked me to help her washing our dormitory's curtain late at night, we were in Form 3 by that time..haha, terlebih rajin ini budak..n paling tak tahan was when she asked me to join her combing the praying mat!!!(memang pompuan nie xde keje lain)..not to mention when she asked me to join her cleaning our toileteries basket using cotton bud!!

So readers, here are some pics taken on her pinky engagement day!
Btw,pink is my favourite colour...do I have 2 tell???

Mind my oily face, baru balik ber"LADAP" di sekolah, huhu
LADAP = Latihan Dalam Perkhidmatan


With her another best friend, Nurulyn Ahmad Tajudin


Marriage: One way ticket,no turning back dear friend!

Now, I'm counting the days for her wedding..
Reason 1:I'l become the MC for tepung tawar session
Reason 2: my tarian kids Gumilang Sari will be performing on her big day!!!
Reason 3: I'm afraid I'm losing my BEST friend!!I think that was what I concerned MOST!!

To Farah, "Kudoakan tenang menghadapi hari-hari terakhir sebelum menjadi milik sang suami tercinta, didoakan hidup dilimpahi mawaddah warahmah, diulit kasih sayang berpanjangan dan kesabaran menemani hari-harimu selepas ini sebagai isteri terbaik buat si dia yang telah terpilih untuk bersamamu, Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin"

Kita asyik membicarakan
Persoalan hidup dan pilihan..

You re still the one

Salam

I'm here all alone in this double story courtyard house..this is where my wedding reception for the groom side was held..and this is the very 1st house my husband bought in early 2005. Our wedding in this house was on May 27th, 2005.

My husband was called up to China yesterday, no worries. He'll be at home tomorrow nite.Being left in this house is a normal scenario to me..and I'm okay with it. Some people always say that I'm brave enough to be left all alone and to face my days on my own whenever hubby not around. Alhamdulillah, I'm capable so far..to go through the days all by myself. I believe I'm alone, but I never feel lonely..I am showered with loves n thoughts..Loves n thoughts from my everdearest husband, my so loving family, warm friends and thoughtful students!!I'm so thankful that I have this wonderful life.Thanks to Allah.

I watched "Mabuk Estrogen" on Astro Ria n it really made me think. I'm thankful to have a good life and a very loyal, caring, supportive and patient husband. Those words can't describe how I feel so grateful to have him in my life. I always sing the Celine Dion song in my heart, "Because You Loved Me"..to me, that what I always feel and it portrays my feeling best!

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldnt speak
You were my eyes when I couldnt see
You aw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldnt reach
You gave me faith cause you believe
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me..

To my husband, YOU'RE STILL THE ONE!

Love is all around

Ku Mohon

Tiap hari kumohon
agar Dikau sentiasa
memberiku ketenangan dalam hati
kekuatan
menempuhi segala hidup yang mencabar ini
Pasti punya ertinya

Kau beriku harapan
Menjawab segala persoalan
Hadapi semua dalam tenang
dengan merasa kesyukuran
ku doa Kau selalu
mengawasi gerak geriku
Berkatilah...ku penuh rahmat dariMu

Oh Tuhan
Terangkan hati dalam sanubariku
untuk menempuhi segala
hidup penuh cabaran ini
Oh Tuhan ku berserah segalanya kepadaMu
Agar jiwaku tenang dengan bimbingan Mu selalu

Adakala ku merasa
hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar
Jatuh berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku melalui semua itu
Kuatkanlah cekalkanlah hatiku..

I'll be listening to this song everytime I face problems..searching for a hero..I believe..there's a hero lies in you..

Indecisive

Salam..

Alhamdulillah..wish we have a blessed Ramadhan..I spent the first one week with Mak n Ayah at Kuala Selangor. And Mak n I even got the chance to fly to Alor Setar to berbuka puasa at Mak Ndak Ani's place on the 5th Ramadhan. I was so happy to spend days with my mom n dad since my hubby went off to Frankfurt for about a week. It so happen Ramadhan starts along with school mid sem break!Those days were so fine..visiting Awie (my dear sis) with her Aneka Bubur stall at PaRam Kuala Selangor..(God knows how me against her decision to quit her job!!)To Awie, may u succeed in anything that you chose to do.I do believe, there are so many path to choose, n I do believe there is no solid answer "correct" or "wrong" for any decision made.We just have to stay strong and work things out!!Good luck dear sista!!

When the school reopened, we started to distribute those exam papers to the students and discussed the answers. No arguement this time compared to the previous Mid Year Exam..its either the students were really satisfied or they do not have the energy!!hehe...poor them..they look so sleepy in class!!(this is when teachers have to be extremely creative to make them alive!!)


I was then a bit busy with the Majlis Solat Hajat for PMR, SPM n STPM candidates..I'm a PTA Secretary (Parents-Teachers Association a.k.a Setiausaha Kehormat Persatuan Ibu Bapa & Guru, PIBG).Well, I would say the event was successful with a big number of attendees n most importantly, the dramatic moments when those students hugged the parents n cried..(the teachers cried too=p)


Now..on 23rd Ramadhan..I havent made any decision where to go back..we do follow the turns..but things are so uncertain this year..I'll blog about it later once a final decision made!

Praying for the BEST!