Abandoned..

Salam

Lamanya tak menulis, byk sebab:

=fokus pd treatment IVF
=berjaya mengandung, tp kekecewaan dgn keguguran kali ke-2
=mengambil masa bersendirian utk pulih kembali semangat
=bz ngan spa yg sgt perlu perhatian
=terlampau byk nak luahkan sampai tak terluah..

Jadi, hari ni sementara tunggu kek coklat siap, gagahkan diri utk kembali menceriakan blog sebelum ia bersawang=)

Baru dengar result Mentor..si Mohd iaitu mentor Ziana Zain yg menang w'pun secara peribadi sy rasa dia taklah sebagus mana..oleh itu,sy fikir apa yg selalu sy katakan adalah benar.."POPULAR TAK SEMESTINYA TERBAIK"

Satu Untuk Semua

Salam

I supposed to have "Exhausted Part 2", but I failed to write..heheh..morale of the story, never have any intention to put serial entries..hehe..friendly reminder for myself=)

yeah, about the Exhausted Series..it was all about my around the clock extremely packed schedule that made me turned cuckoo!!heheh..I did not even have the chance to complete my facial routine..I mean the DIY facial, not to tell about my nail..nak potong pun tak sempat!Ishishish...Everyday is about work n work (kerja wajib=cikgu, kerja sampingan=spa, kerja hobi=show/tarian, kerja mengarut=melepak)..I had once yelled in my facebook status, I need a vacation!!Definitely, I need one!...hubby kept on saying to go to London by end of this year..erm, but I don't think he meant it...haha

So, after quite sometimes since my last entri..today I would like to share about my Gumilang Sari attempt in School Got Talent-Online Competition..I was given this task by my Pengetua. She said, 'let's give it a try..manalah tau menang RM10K!!' hehe..competition was sponsored by TM and SKMM. Gumilang Sari had their practices for about two weeks though we have problems to get permanent members..u knoe its kinda hard to get boys to join u in dancing club (I mean traditional dance) since they are all prefer to learn on how to shuffle!At the end of the day, I decided to have 7 girlz n only 3 boyz in the team..actually I planned to have equal no.

Video Shooting by SKMM personnel (but the fasilitator mentioned SND, what ever) was held on April 1st. Thanx a lot to Cikgu Sarimah n Cikgu Zarina who had helped me a lot with this..well, I wasnt in a good condition starting March 29..so these two teachers had played their important roles to make this happen. So readers, u may register urself in http://www.bluehyppo.com/ and vote for my team, SMK Cyberjaya-Satu Utk Semua starting May 1st. May be ur vote can help our team to be qualified to the semi final..well, zaman dah berubah. Schools competition format also changed..n I keep on reminding myself, dunia sekarang dunia IT, siapa menguasai IT, maka dia menjadi paling berkuasa..I teringat the last PRU, Pakatan Rakyat menang sbb mereka lebih celik IT dan bijak memanipulasikan kuasa IT, berbanding BN yang pada ketika itu lebih selesa dgn media tradisional.I learnt a lot from there..n it somehow urged me to have this blog. N when Pengetua gave me the task, I terus teringat senario PRU itu.

Now, lets enjoy the pics..captured by Miya, a Gumilang Sari member who wants to leave the group to give 100% focus on PMR..All the best Miya!

Fatin Hasya waited to put on her fake eyelashes, she seems a bit uncomfortable with her costume, poor her..


Rem in lengha, Indian traditional costume n Miya with her big green in samfu..so cute!

Adhani wud always look stunning in kebaya..yeah, exotic Malay maiden look


Me:cuba ko tarik nafas ko tu Ad, tak larat teacher nak temukan pending nie ha..

Ops..kan dah nampak 'muka payah' Cikgu Seri

Meenal, my 1 KRK student, an athlete who can dance..she is the school olahragawati with 4 golds!

the stage, done by Cikgu Sarimah, a UiTM fashion design graduate who had working experience with tv3, lucky SMKCyberjaya to have those talented teachers in school=)

But now I'm in a total rest phase!hehe..will update u soon=)

exhausted..Part 1

Salam..

I had just arrived home and now savouring my super late lunch cum dinner..alone, yeah...all alone..again and again..(I'm fine with it)

Mm, let me tell u my super duper hectic days..I had one week holidays and spent the time at home and school (particularly for tarian training, sbb keje lain x buat pun...hehe)So it was all about the same from Monday (15th) to Friday(19th). Friday night,approximately 10.30pm hubby arrived from Rome?Paris?ntah..I cudnt recall..(sign of aging??)and me forced him to accompany me to get the tarian costumes for Gumilang Sari show from Syahnawi Creation@Serdang.We then tidoq tak ingat dunia!!

Saturday morning: 9.00 am Gumilang Sari training..by 1pm,done and I rushed to Gha's studio (my aerobic n pilates instructor) at Kota Warisan to get songkok Melaka??eh??ke ape pun nama dia la..the minangkabau headgear..On my back home, hubby texted me telling that mom n dad n Nazirah (my chatterbox niece)are coming to my house, their car was somehow giving a freaking sound and they chosed to check at any workshop available in Bandar Seri Putra..They were on their way to Tiara Beach Resort,Port Dickson. N I'm supposed to join them later.

So, when they arrived, mom said.."boleh pegi skarang??" means.."mak, ayah n Nazirah naik kete ko la sbb mak takut la nak bawa keta tu gi PD, kang ape lagi lah bunyi dia buat.." N hubby n I was like lipas kudung kemas barang, alah nothing to bawa pun..one nite vacation jer..So, here are the pics at Port Dickson.

Spent a nite there and the following day we were rushing home because I need to be at school before 1pm for two reasons:
#1 to check on Kelab Kebudayaan Trip to MATIC for Teater Gamat, 40 students are going and Cikgu Zarina n Nada will be the chaperones.
#2 to fetch all those Gumilang Sari dancer to Dewan Perdana Felda for a wedding show.

by 2.00pm : We left school heading to Dewan Perdana Felda..and the havoc are as seen in following pictures..

Show finished about 10pm and I only managed to reach home by 1.45am after sending all those dancers home at Bandar Bukit Puchong 2, Pulau Meranti, Kuarters Bomba Cyberjaya, Dengkil, and Kota Warisan..ITULAH KEISTIMEWAAN SMK CYBERJAYA-students datang dari segala ceruk yang jauh-jauh antara satu sama lain..(hantar depan pintu, anak2 orang nie..)Special thanx to Mr Hubby for ur kindness helping me with those kids.Thanx again hubby, I owe you 1,2,3,4=p

Congested??

Salam..

I just came back from my spa..yeah, check out from skul by 4.20pm, then makan2 sesion at Restoran Mak Teh Cyberjaya together with Maz(of coz), Nada, Hasma n Kak Isma..all are singles but me..hehe..normal scenario, when hubby not around, I'l be 'single' la..hehe..

After had a super LATE lunch (wajar ke dipanggil lunch?), we then made our own way back home..Maz, Hasma n K.Isma to Putrajaya, Nada to Nilai n me to my 'SENJA PERMAI'..Bandar Seri Putra..shoot straight to spa to get any updates n questionnaires posted by my super duper SMAPK senior A.K.A my facebook friend, Kak Aya..I left spa by 7pm, had some discussion with my staf's parent, n then planned to go to stationary shop.Jangan marah..I amat suka beli stationery, walaupun tak pakai...hoho...SGT BUDAK SEKOLAH=)

But, I called it off then..REASON??I didnt get a parking!!haha...what a lame excuse, but that's the truth!!terus nak keluar junction dan TERHEGEH-HEGEH menunggu turn nak kuau!!PERSOALAN??Bandar Seri Putra dah mula sibuk, mana ceruk lagi aku nak duduk??
(Perhatian: Tahap toleransi kepadatan saya AMAT RENDAH!!)Sy TIDAK SUKA tempat ramai orang sehingga saya digelakkan oleh kawan2 saya membeli barang di South City Plaza yg giler xde org!!tempat2 seperti Mid Valley, KLCC adalah allergic utk saya..begitu juga IKEA dan The Curve,,sy hanya pergi pd hari bekerja..weekend???saya tak kan mampu utk pergi!!Dan saya TIDAK gila shopping!!!saya hanya beli ape yg saya mahu dan kebanyakannya saya beli online, hehe..

Conclusion??WORK HARDER AND SAVE MORE, CAN BUY A NEW HOUSE di tempat yg TAK PADAT!!But where??

Emo??

Missing someone until I cry!!
Hate it!!

I hate it when you are not around and the fact that you didn't call..

BUT MOSTLY, I HATE THE WAY THAT I DON'T HATE YOU..
NOT EVEN CLOSE, NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT, NOT EVEN AT ALL!!!

A shoulder to cry on

Hello..

I'm now writing from my school's desktop, haha..running from my unreliabale ACER zaman tok kadok because hubby brought his HP to work..I supposed to do some marking, but I chose to update my blog. (Betapa tak fokusnya cikgu ini..)

Hey, what made me here?I mean school??mm, to be honest it is just because I need some space to write, I mean to let my feeling off!!that's the truth. About marking, PEKA, Fail Kebersihan, question papers etc. I can simply bring it home and do it..BUT I'm still here in front of my pc just to share a story..a story about my spa..

I seldom write or tell about my spa because I dont really like people to know any problems occur in my business.And being a businesswoman (so called), I believe that I need to be strong to face any obstacles and unexpected problems that sometimes really ruin my mood n energy!!Exhausting!!

What happened today? I went to spa and do some clerical thingy, (biase la ntah ape2 je la yg I akan buat kan)..and when I was about to leave my spa, I saw Akma (my staff) watery eyes..I stood in front of her and asked why..she refused to talk, n I knew she tried to hold her tears..Well, I let her cry for few seconds before asking her again..waited patiently n she finally told me abot her worries..(which actually is something that I'm worrying about too!!)She's worrying about the fact that we havent got any new beautician to replace those who had left us for studies n etc (I do not want to elaborate)..It's ok readers, I'll take care of it.This is not my very first time facing and handling those troubles..I called my mom 2 days before to tell her, "Mak, kita dah tak larat dah mak..dah jadi lali dah..mcm2 dah berlaku pun..", n my mom as always will text me later, "be tough, good girl"..Well, she still call me a girl (I love you Mak)..

My point is, Akma can cry and I can be her shoulder to cry on..she still have the tears to cry..n she still have me to listen..what about me??I takut nak fikir sebab kenapa I dah tak boleh nak nangis, sometimes I think I'm just too egoist to cry..or is it becaused I had lost my feelings??My neighbour had once said,"Jangan biarkan diri Seri jd sampai xde perasaan..hati kering jer."

Oh no..I was driving to school just now carrying all those emotional baggage (nie pun satu masalah gak, bawak kereta dgn minda ntah kat mana2)..Ye ke aku nie dah tak de perasaan??or I just have to be strong to face everything??I need a shoulder to cry on...

Ya Allah, begitu sarat mindaku, bantulah dan ringankanlah..

Bukan Kemahuan Fikiran

This is what I DONT LIKE!!!
My hubby went off to work,n me living all alone in the middle of nowhere..
So, I ended up searching songs from Youtube n listened to it. This week had somehow turned to be Fauziah Latif week..I listened to all the songs that I used to get hooked up to when I was a teenager. Zaman jiwang karat, zaman when u listen to songs that will make u feel motivated or delighted, (Ye ke??)hehe..n hanyut dibuai asmara juga..haha..

N this lyrics is relly meaningful to me (once, n maybe for now as well..)

Aku relakan kau pergi dari sisi hatiku
Begini lama setelah tiada jalan penyudah
Jiwa yang hampa kan bertanya apa masih
Percintaan bukanlah kemahuan fikiran
Di perasaan tersimpan segalanya rahsia
Dan tiada dapat kutahankan rindu itu
Di antara kita bicara berbeza
Siapa yang merasa dia melara
Tiada upaya menahan derita
Cinta yang hampa
Seraut wajahmu yang paling indah
Walau ia ________ di hati ini
Seterusnya hidup bersimpul di dalam diri ini
Terlepaslah diriku dari rindu yang sarat
Aku kini tenggelam dalam sendu berbisa selamanya

Wah, I boleh tulis lirik tu without listening to it??sangat hafal?sangat bermakna kah?

Aku bagaikan sebutir pasir, yang lemah lagi kerdil.